Monday, April 16, 2012


So about that blog post I wrote a few weeks ago... at this point I don't think I'll be deleting it. The response I got to it was overwhelming, and made me realize that yes, things can be hard and there will be challenges and struggles, but that I shouldn't simply give up because things aren't going well at that particular moment. When I'm in that mode of thinking, it's really hard to see the bright side and to believe that what I'm making has any value.

On that point, I've decided to stop being mopey and depressed when things are going slow. Instead of wallowing around feeling sorry for myself and being a complete waste of space (as is my usual response), I'll instead... make something. I'm determined to be inspired by my feelings of sadness and make something new. I've actually already had a head start on this. At the end of last week I began working on some new things for my (almost non-existent) kadona/boy-style wear. I'm not going to get into the details at the moment, but I'm very excited with what I've come up with!

When I first started up my Etsy shop, my personal goal was to add a new item each week. Well that lasted a handful of weeks until I got busy with orders, and then proceeded to fully forget about it. I've also realized that I've managed to meet and follow through with each and every goal I set for myself, in my New Year's Resolutions blog post, except for the upgrading my home-machine to tank (which I can't really afford/help at the moment, so maybe by the end of the year?) and the fashion show participation/selling of wares in person will be taking place in June! That being said, I've decided to go ahead and reinstate my aforementioned goal of adding new items to the shop. I'm aiming to add new things at the beginning of every month - it's not going to be a like a mini-line or anything, just a handful of garments/items that I feel deserve a spot in the shop. I feel like it's been quite a while since I've designed anything new, so I'm excited to get back to that. I'm also planning to finally invest in some decent lighting and a backdrop to at last bring my photos up to decent quality! I've been saying this for... years(?) now, and I'm hoping to actually follow through with this before the end of the month.

One more thing before I go. I wanted to thank all my fans for your complete and total support. You all are a huge reason why I get to do what I love doing, and I couldn't be more grateful for you. Your words of encouragement really slapped me out of my sour mood and got my head back on straight. I don't know what I'd do with out you all - thank you~

Miss Chubi

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Easter Surprise~

I only do sales like this twice a year (the next won't be until Black Friday), so don't miss out!


Friday, April 6, 2012

And sometimes, I just feel like giving up~

Having your own indie brand can be really awesome at times. But most of the time it's really hard. And not just hard, it can be downright lonely. Especially when you're the sole owner of said indie brand. I've got to be self-motivated and always pushing forward, which is really hard to do when you've had the absolute worst month of sales. I hate talking about these things publicly, but right now I just need to get it out (will probably delete this post later when I'm feeling happier).

I took such a long time, and so much time away from my other work to get Lollipop Parade finished because... I thought it'd be worth it. I truly thought I was making a good choice in focusing all my time, energy, and putting what little money I have into making it a reality. I thought it would all pay off in the end. But I may have been wrong.

At this point in time I can't say whether or not I'll be doing a line for the winter. I really, really want to, but the way things are going now, it's not looking like a possibility. I was planning on making it twice as big as Lollipop Parade, which means that much more money, time, and effort. And frankly, I don't think I have it in me. And the way things are going now, I know I won't have the money for it.

It's times like these when I just feel like giving up, closing shop, and getting a "real" job (which for me, means retail). This is a nightmare to have to consider that, and I simply can't do it. And it's not because I'm spoiled and need everything handed to me. When I'm working in retail I want to kill myself. I can't go back there, making minimum wage. I'll die if I have to do that. Elegy is my dream, and when it's doing good, it validates my dream. When it's doing bad, well it makes me want to give up.

Also, I'm not just being shallow and impatient. I know the economy goes up and down and things come up, etc. But having only one sale in a week is pretty pathetic... even for me.

I'm sure I won't get any comments, because I never do. But I'd love to hear why you think I should keep Elegy going?